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see no one loves you more than me--and no one ever will
July 31, 2007
// 11:11 AM
You know how you just get a hold of new songs and you just listen to them over and over and over again? Well, that's me right now, except their not exactly new songs.
John Mayer - the whole damn Continuum album
Lauryn Hill - Ex-factor
Barbie Hsu & Vic Zhou - Rang Wo Ai Ni
Yesterday I got a nice surprise visit from Bjay, Dallis and Larry while I was eating dinner. And they came bearing gifts! Gifts of strawberry icy with pearls from QCup. We just talked about our questionable trip to socal, about how Bjay is a gangster, and of course about how lame I am. We looked at my reallllly old pictures too--back from 7th grade. Good times. Too bad I hardly talk to anyone in those pictures now with the exception of Bjay.
Not that much work today. I'm waiting for the Safeway guy to come through the door and cure my empty stomache. Ivy brought me to work today. There was oodles of traffic. I wouldn't mind sitting in traffic right now, turning up my music really loudly and just sitting there by myself in my own little (sorta) car and not really need to go anywhere.
Last night I passed the time watching Monk. That show... it was funny as usual, and Monk is genious as usual. I didn't do much else. It was hot in my room last night, so I went to sleep without my blanket over me and when I woke up to the garbage men, I was freezing and I kept waking up, hoping that I didn't have to get up soon. I love it when I wake up way in the middle of the night thinking I still get to sleep for 4 hours. I can't imagine how I ever had a hard time sleeping. I can do it all day now if I wanted to. Lazy summer I guess.
Your aunt came into work today to my surprise. I thought they were going back from Merced today. I guess they cut their trip short a day. What have you been up to? I hardly see you online anymore so I assume you're just off playing or watching tv. How many hours do you work a day? Are you working 8-hour shifts already? You must be getting really dark--dark and chlorine smelling. For some reason, I have been becoming more and more optimistic about this whole ordeal. Or maybe I just feel better because I got to hear your voice the other day, even if it was for a mere 20 minutes and it wasn't exactly a pleasant conversation. But I think it's mostly because I have been thinking about you and me and I keep thinking we just work together--you do things and teach me things I wouldn't know without you and I am there to help and teach you things you might not know without me. I keep thinking theres so much more we planned to do, so many more things to be happy about and to be shared. For some reason I keep thinking about that meteor shower next month I wanted to watch with you. I keep thinking that you will consider the day before last Friday night, and the day before that, and the day before that, and the day before that when you asked me to come to see you for half an hour and I gladly obliged. I keep thinking about how I was so happy and how you seemed happy and all of a sudden it ended. I keep thinking, 'he can't just end it like that; he knows this is all wrong; he knows we shouldn't do this; he knows we've worked way too hard to just end it.' I keep thinking you know that next year won't be the same as last (if you're still thinking about last year). I keep hoping you'll know I can make it better. I keep hoping you'll remember that I don't let things that I think are wrong to just go untouched without trying to fix it. I really can fix it.
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tell me who I have to be to gain some reciprocity
July 30, 2007
// 11:03 AM
Yesterday I woke up and didn't want to get up. I just layed in bed for a while after a really shitty night of me being ridiculously miserable. I realized I'd been in bed for a while after waking up because I had turned on my iPod to listen to. Then I realized my dad was home and would probably get annoyed that I slept in so late. I brushed my teeth and I just turned on my laptop. Then I realized I hadn't even gone downstairs to say hi to my dad yet. I didn't eat anything cause I didn't feel hungry and I hopped on upstairs not knowing what to do.
Dallis and Larry came over later on in the day to play with the sidewalk chalk that I bought. I would post the pictures of the stuff we drew but I'm not at home right now. We covered the whole portion of the street in front of my house. It was amusing seeing cars try to dodge the drawings but they just ended up rolling over them and making a photocopy of the drawings with their tires as they continued to drive by.
We decided to walk to Jamba Juice, and as Larry said, we gained a minute of life by walking. We came back and they left. I just sat in my room for a bit and then Ivy and Willis came to see me bearing gifts of lemon tarts that were just absolutely darling. I refuse to eat the heart shaped tart until it's been fully appreciated. We talked for a while and I had little for dinner cause I didn't feel hungry after all that Jamba. We decided to go to visit Bjay during his last shift at Starbucks. We walked in and found that Billy was there with other people I knew from Interact/RYLA. Bjay's co-worker kinda freaked me out cause he was asking us if we wanted drinks when Bjay stepped out. He tried to convince us to get some and offered to make it on the house. I don't know why, you just had to be there to be a little freaked out. Then when we went outside to talk, we waved at Bjay who was behind the co worker who was on break and he thought we were waving at him and he waved back. Awkward turtle. Awkward moose. Awkward cow, horse, pig, bunny, and fish.
Willis dropped me off and again I just locked myself up in my room needing distractions.
Thank goodness I have work today. I don't know what I'd do if I were just at home by myself. I need something to do anyways. This is my last week of work. All these nice people and free food (Chipotle today!) and the nice paychecks, they'll all be gone soon--as will my summer, and maybe even my other, better half.
How've you been? No doubt I've been wondering that all day for the past couple of days. I'm sure you've been doing fine, you're a lot stronger than I am I guess. Now you'll have to read my ramblings right? Since I can't call and tell you how my day went? Haven't you just gotten your first paycheck? That must be a good feeling.. I didn't see your aunt at work today and I remember she's still on that camping trip with your parents. Did your mom leave you yummy food to last you the next couple of days? I bet there's steak and some sashimi or some tuna pasta with cucumbers.. this is getting me quite hungry. Maybe your email filled with food'll help. You're probably all beat up from your trip yesterday. I hope you're not hurting too bad.. I wish I could help. Are you going to start HP today? It starts out a little slow but it gets really good towards the middle. You know my mom asked me why I didn't just buy it? Too late for that huh? I'm sorry if it's all beat up. I really tried hard to keep it all in tact, really. I would barely open the book to read so as to not make it seem like it's been read through. I really don't know how the back cover got dirty. I really don't know. But like you said it's what's in the book that matters anyways. I kinda feel empty at work because it's not here for me to read. Anyways, that's all. I'm waiting and I miss you.
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how quickly we forget
July 29, 2007
// 1:35 AM
I meant to write. Many times before this, but I never got around to it. I have been busy trying to get through my last days of work while my supervisor continues to pound all the work she could possibly give me before I leave. I've been busy trying to make the most of my summer. I've been busy trying to finish Harry Potter (which I just did). I've been busy trying to hang out with the people who mean the most to me.. And now, I'd just like to say that this summer, really hasn't been the best of summers.
Lauryn Hill - Ex-factor.
Thanks Bjay, Lenny, Nella and Sean for taking me out today. All my love.
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Summer in the city
July 16, 2007
// 1:27 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANELLA UMALI ^_^ v
 So this is the photo I got in my inbox today. Apparently all of Napster offices (San Jose, San Diego, LA, and New York) are celebrating their first ever employee appreciation week and they're giving us all kinds of goodies, mostly in the form of food. They like to make us fat. So, according to schedule, today we had pastries in the morning and once again, Mondo. I had my regular quesadilla. Tomorrow, I'll be ready and not prepare plans for lunch as I hope to be enjoying my yummy Jamba. What the heck is chotchky you ask? Apparently the correct spelling is something like tchotchky--basically a knickknack. Probably a stress ball or something, haha. Lmao at the ice cream and BEER social. Someone is bound to ask me if I want some and then be surprised after I say I'm no where near 21.
 I finished It Started With a Kiss. I must say, it had its laggy parts, but it was definitely worthwhile and definitely should not be missed if you're on a drama spree like I am. It's one of the most recommended Taiwanese dramas. After watching it, I've fallen in love with Joe Cheng (Zhang Yuan Cheng). Seriously, if there ever were a Zhi Shu (his character from ISWAK), I'd marry him. Or at least try to. But alas, since there isn't, I'll settle with the real him. haha. Anyone who's watched Full House would appreciate this video I found of him. They ask him about Rain and what he admires about him. Then someone asks him to dance like Rain. He then does the 3 Bears Dance from Full House. Gosh I love him. Watching this drama made me really want a tall Chinese guy who wears his messenger bag well and is super smart. Please? Anyways, I can't describe to anyone how darling I thought ISWAK was. Ariel Lin is realllly cute too.
I know I sound crazy will all my Asian drama talk, but they seriously make me really happy watching. I like a good cry, and even better if I'm crying out of happiness. These sappy things really make me :). It turns me back into a hopeless romantic but still, I love seeing happy people in love. And what's also great is, it's helping me tons with my Mandarin. I'm understanding more and more, and it's really making me try to study Chinese asap. I actually brought my sister's Chinese textbook she used at UCSD (which is the same one Cal uses) to work today and started going through the textbook and practicing. If anyone wants to seriously be as lame (or as cool 8] ) as me, and watch..:
+ Meteor Garden 1 (classic happy/sad/funny - 4.5/5)
+ Meteor Garden 2 (don't watch unless you seriously love F4 and need more. if you have to, watch the first 2 episodes and the last 3 episodes - 2/5)
+ Mars (really different from all the other sappy dramas--def watch it if you don't want to see something sappy but something more serious - 4.3/5)
+ Full House (CLASSIC Korean drama--just do it. - 4/5)
+ Lovers in Paris (it was okay--maybe I couldn't stand it cause the main guy was fugly - 3/5)
+ Sang Doo, Let's Go to School (damn my heartbroke with this one - 4.5/5)
+ It Started With a Kiss 1 (let's just say I've watched the ending about 3 times; only because I thought it was laggy at some parts it's lower than what I could give it - 4.5/5)
Anyways, enough of that.
I went to Monterey yesterday. It was really nice there. I don't think anyone enjoys getting away to the coastline as much as I do just to walk and enjoy the seabreeze. I love looking at the ocean--when I'm driving to SD, I always wait to see the water. If I'm sleeping, I'll tell everyone to wake me when the ocean comes into view. Same with snow. But I don't know what'd I'd do if I couldn't get away once in a while and go down the little shops in Monterey and SF and get to dip my feet in the ice cold Northern California coast. We went to Carmel-by-the-Sea at first and enjoyed the nice view while cooking Korean beef on our little pathetic mini grill that took forever to cook. The water was freezing of course. We played frisbee and hit a couple of people, but it was definitely fun. After that, everyone was pretty tired from being out in the sun, but we went to Cannery Row to get crepes but were unsuccessful. We pigged out at Dippin' Dots instead and wasted more money getting churros that weren't as satisfying as we had hoped. After that, it was almost 7 and we headed home. I was pretty damn tired, but it was a quite a nice day to have before returning to work.
OH. AND IF YOU IGNORED EVERYTHING I JUST SAID ABOUT ISWAK, you AT LEAST have to watch this precious video. PLEASE??? :)
Labels: Joe Cheng, Monterey, work
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it's almost Friday
July 12, 2007
// 11:33 AM
So last night I watched Harry Potter and the OOTP. It was.... OKAY. It wasn't really bad, I thought, but it wasn't fantastic either. I hardly remembered the book but what I did remember was that I didn't like it too much. The only notable part I remembered from the book is the fighting scene at the end. I also remembered how I hated Harry in OOTP cause he was so mean and angry all the time. He didn't seem much like it in the movie. This morning I looked on Sparknotes to remind myself what OOTP was about. Turns out they changed a lot.. Lines were given to other characters in the movie I guess for convenience and simplicity. The movie had nothing about Ron and Hermione becoming prefects and nothing about quidditch. I guess that stuff is really insignificant but it would've made it so all the movies had something in common (quidditch) and it'd show that the characters are getting older and have more authority now. Shrug. I hear it broke all kinds of records. Probably cause it was hyped up to be the darkest one yet. Sure was though. I thought Luna Lovegood was cute. :p
So yesterday at work I had a REALLLLY long day. A tedious job took up a good 7 hours of my time at work. Man. I hate having to use the copier and printer all the time. I feel like everyone is getting annoyed hearing it go off. And I'm also hogging it all the time. Shessh. Someone walks by and has a puzzled look on their face cause they see that it's printing a pile of 6 originals, 40 copies each. Not my fault. I gots ta use it.
 This morning has been light on work though. I actually haven't done much besides refill the fridge with pop and open some mail. I realized today, that I'm going to be getting another 4 pay checks. That all sounds good and fun right? But to me, it sounds like I have to be working here another 4 weeks. I actually only have 3 weeks left here after this week is done though. I think I really deserve getting a new camera. I think I've basically decided on the Canon Powershot SD1000. It's cheaper than the SD750 but has nearly the same exact specs. The only difference is in their body. One looks quite nicer than the other, but I don't think I want to pay for prettiness. And besides. If I get the nicest one I believe is out there, there's nothing to upgrade to when I want a new one again (which no doubt will be in maybe another 5 years or something). Anyways, the SD1000 is the one on the right. The obviously less sleek and chic one. But The traditional look of the SD1000 is growing on me.. after looking at it a thousand or so times. I'll probably get the silver one shown instead of the one with the black circle. Who knows when I'll actually get it. I'm planning to at a time before I get my paycheck so it doesn't seem that drastic.
I'm reading HP and the Half Blood Prince at work during my spare time. My goal is to finish it before HP and the Deathly Hallows comes out. Who knows, I might actually make it. I don't think I want to buy the new book though. I'm hoping I can just borrow it from someone. I don't have the whole collection--just HBP--so I think getting the other one is kind useless considering at most I'll read it twice and it won't look pretty on my shelf with its past 6 predecessors, just one. Anyways. Back to reading!Labels: camera, Harry Potter, work
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Mondo Tuesday
July 10, 2007
// 1:04 PM
I really wish I could download things on this computer at work. But then again, I might screw something up and get in trouble.. so I guess it's good that I can't. Whatever. I still wish I could listen to music somewhere on this thing. The other desktops have Napster installed but for some reason I can't open it on my computer. Ugh. The closest thing I can get to listening to what I want is going on last.fm and listening to Jason Mraz radio. That or, bringing in my iPod and listening to music there, but it's running out of batteries so tough luck for me.
Oh btw. Here's the lily pad picture I took at Balboa Park that I used for this layout. Woot. I'll dig up the orchid one too that I like..  This week I'm going to try not to go out as often as I usually do for the sake of saving my mom from having to tell me I go out a lot. So Sunday and Monday night I didn't go out, and I don't intend to tonight either. All this so I can leave the house with out guilt on tomorrow (HARRY FREAKING POTTER & OOTP) and Thursday. Then I'll try really hard to trap myself in on Friday night so that I can play with Eliot when he comes on Saturday and wish my Nella a happy 20th! Man, we're old. Yesterday I got back from work and went to Kevin's to bike. But after about 10 minutes on the bike and a lot of complaining coming from me, Kevin finally agreed to run instead. If he's gonna be a lifeguard he's not going to get the workout he needs from biking downhill half the time. So! We ran over to the park and played frisbee which I really suck at and ran back to his place. Not that much running but, alas, I'm still sore today.. probably from that ugly "sprint" uphill on the bike back to his house. Oh, I like this song! Guster - Satellite [The Astronauts Remix] Man. Mondo Monday was skipped yesterday so today was deemed Mondo Tuesday. Mondo--a mexican food place around here where the office orders food from a lot. I always get the same thing--small quesadilla, white tortilla with chicken ranch, lettuce, mixed cheese and sour cream. I'm so damn full. I went outside with my phone to take a walk outside after with the intention of calling someone but that didn't work out because I just thought everyone I could call would probably be busy so I just walked outside for a little while. I came back and here I am. With nothing to do.  I bought sidewalk chalk the other day. If anyone feels like drawing something pretty on the street with me feel free and come over. I think I'll draw something today when I get back. For some reason, while I was driving today, I was reminded of that driving instructor I had at .. mm what was it called? Transworld? Well whatever. I remember that guy was freaking hilarious. When ever I would turn, he would instruct me to "strike it back!"-- referring to the wheel. But it was mostly funny because of the way he said it. It sounded like "strick it back!" Man the good ol' days of being young. I'm getting too old. This is sad. Seriously, can someone take me to the beach?
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Doing that thing you do
July 09, 2007
// 11:56 AM
Do you like the new layout? I do. This was one of my most favorite pictures from my trip down to San Diego for my sister's graduation. we went to Balboa Park.. that place was amazing. Speaking of which, I still haven't uploaded pictures from the place. I shall do that tonight!
Anyways, I'm at work and I just finished a Safeway order. that's always fun. I hate Mondays. I can't believe I have to go through another 3 weeks of waking up at 8 something and get yelled at for going out by my mom because I lack free time during the day. When I'm done here, I should have a good 3 weeks to enjoy what I have left of my short, work-filled, summer. I really don't feel like going back to school, but I feel like I've just gotten twenty times dumber  from leaving the books for so long. I really freaking hope I get into my Chinese language class. I REALLY need to get in. If I don't, my plans for study abroad are going to screwed up. Nevertheless, I still need to meet up with the EAP people at school. I can't wait to go to China to study! That is, assuming I get into the program. But my sister said it shouldn't be to hard? It'd be super exciting because the Summer Olympics are going to be going on. I'm going to get a billion of those mascot memorabilia--soooo freaking cute. BeiBei JingJing HuanHuan YingYing NiNi (Beijing Huan Ying Ni -- Beijing Welcomes You or Welcome to Beijing). My favorite one is the panda (Jing Jing). Apparently, from left to right, they are--a fish, a panda, the olympic fire, antelope, and a swallow. Cute.
I want to play tennis. I really need to get off my butt and do something. Actually. I take that back. I spend a lot of my time on my butt at work, but I'm still technically working. So kudos for me for not being lazy. Extra kudos for when I get back from work and go play tennis right when I get home--which I very well may do today if it's not 100 degrees outside (just kidding--even if it's 90 I won't play..hah).
Someday soon I'm going to do a 'day in the life of' post. I'm just going to take pictures from the time my damn phone wakes me up for work until I set my alarm at night before bed. That should be fun.
Oh, I got my photos from my SLR camera that I took in what.. November? I know. Lazy. Anyways, they're pretty! Too bad I'm too lazy to scan them.Labels: China, photos, work
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